It's like I am discovering food again from the beginning. Stuff I used to eat and be like.. meh.. whatever.. is now a wondrous treat!!
for example: I bought some tuna fish.. i am onto my "soft food" phase.. and that includes flaky fish and ground meats.. YAY! so anyway.. i bought some tuna.. just a simple mix.. bit of mayo, some mustard on top.. ate with a fork.. a little 2oz package. I am FULL.. i didn't overeat.. but it's the first time in a long time I ate something and felt actual fullness.. it's amazing.
Let me tell you how good it tasted. lol.. i feel almost foolish in saying it.. but.. my eyes got all big as i chewed slowly being sure to grind it up good. It was the equivilent to the food high i used to get when I would go with my family over to the flat rock grill place in lowell and have their prime rib with garlic mashed potatoes. it was amazing! :)
so.. doing a lot better.. i can't wait until my bandages fall off from my incisions. They are mostly healed and the bandages are holding onto the scabs.. but.. I don't want to rip them off. Once Payday comes Im going to join a gym.. I may not be able to lift anything yet, but I sure as heck can take advantage of their aerobic machines!
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Healing
Well things are going better.. I think im starting to break my emotional attachment to food a bit. I had a really bad day yesterday and I wasn't thinking only about wanting a big ol' pizza! which is great!!!
I go in to see the surgeon Thursday the 30th and we'll see if he wants to give me another fill or if I have to wait for 3 more weeks. I'm not having a lot of restriction, so a fill would be great.. im not planning on it though.
Things are going well. I moved to soft foods Today.. that will help a LOT i am sure. Heading out to get some groceries in a bit.. I can't wait to bake a piece of fish.. mmm.. real food. :) lol.. I realize how pitiful that sounds, but it's also still true.
I go in to see the surgeon Thursday the 30th and we'll see if he wants to give me another fill or if I have to wait for 3 more weeks. I'm not having a lot of restriction, so a fill would be great.. im not planning on it though.
Things are going well. I moved to soft foods Today.. that will help a LOT i am sure. Heading out to get some groceries in a bit.. I can't wait to bake a piece of fish.. mmm.. real food. :) lol.. I realize how pitiful that sounds, but it's also still true.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Ugh
Ok.. starting to have some serious doubts.
Yes.. im at the lowest weight I've been at in 3+ years.. after only a week.
However.. I am going through food cravings/withdrawal like I never ever believed possible. I want to eat. I want to chew something with some consistency. I am really starting to wonder if this was the right choice for me at this age.
Granted.. people told me.. you're fat. Doctors said something has to change. Parents said it's wonderful and it'll make your life so much better. All the brochures and preliminary conferences and stuff all said just smaller portions, i can deal with that no problem!!!
After finding a wonderful board with tons of banded people and lots of very HONEST opinions.. it seems alot of the information i *thought* was correct.. is way wrong!
Bread.. seems to get stuck in a band.. so.. mostly a no-no. I LOVE BREAD!
Rice, pizza, some chicken, lettuce, many cheeses, beer, soda.. ugh.
reason I say i could have waited is when I went in for my pre-op testing, and my testing day of.. all my results were perfect. blood pressure, glucose levels, blood counts, breathing, lung capacity, so.. basically my only fault.. was that im fat. Just wondering if I shouldn't have waited 10 yrs or somehting before doing something like this.
now true.. it's "different for everyone" but with 4 weeks until I can even attempt solid food.. im just starting to have some real doubts.. hopefully it's just withdrawl, hopefully I won't have as many negative food experiences as others (i.. am younger than 90% of them afterall)
Yes.. im at the lowest weight I've been at in 3+ years.. after only a week.
However.. I am going through food cravings/withdrawal like I never ever believed possible. I want to eat. I want to chew something with some consistency. I am really starting to wonder if this was the right choice for me at this age.
Granted.. people told me.. you're fat. Doctors said something has to change. Parents said it's wonderful and it'll make your life so much better. All the brochures and preliminary conferences and stuff all said just smaller portions, i can deal with that no problem!!!
After finding a wonderful board with tons of banded people and lots of very HONEST opinions.. it seems alot of the information i *thought* was correct.. is way wrong!
Bread.. seems to get stuck in a band.. so.. mostly a no-no. I LOVE BREAD!
Rice, pizza, some chicken, lettuce, many cheeses, beer, soda.. ugh.
reason I say i could have waited is when I went in for my pre-op testing, and my testing day of.. all my results were perfect. blood pressure, glucose levels, blood counts, breathing, lung capacity, so.. basically my only fault.. was that im fat. Just wondering if I shouldn't have waited 10 yrs or somehting before doing something like this.
now true.. it's "different for everyone" but with 4 weeks until I can even attempt solid food.. im just starting to have some real doubts.. hopefully it's just withdrawl, hopefully I won't have as many negative food experiences as others (i.. am younger than 90% of them afterall)
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Day.. 5 post-op
Not too much new to report.
My swelling has gone down a LOT past 2 days. Which means I am eating with no pain (well.. drinking) however.. it also means that food is passing through the pouch much faster so i am hungry a lot more often.
side.. note.. lost another 4 lbs. so.. total weight loss since clinic is.. around 22 lbs. I had my initial number wrong it other posts.. I found my paperwork today and it was a bit higher than number I was going off originally.
My swelling has gone down a LOT past 2 days. Which means I am eating with no pain (well.. drinking) however.. it also means that food is passing through the pouch much faster so i am hungry a lot more often.
side.. note.. lost another 4 lbs. so.. total weight loss since clinic is.. around 22 lbs. I had my initial number wrong it other posts.. I found my paperwork today and it was a bit higher than number I was going off originally.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Day 4 Post Op
I actually slept in my bed last night.. holy crap that felt great!!!
I woke up feeling a LOT better.. i haven't had to take any pain medication so far this morning (only been awake 4 hours) I was able to run to the store and get some more meds without any problems. I even parked furthest spot I could get from the CVS and walked both ways.. (only about 100 yds one way)
I also was able to drink about half of a protein shake this morning without any discomfort at all.. yay!!! so able to consume 4oz with no discomfort and im able to bend over and tie shoes without my stictches feeling like they're going to rip out!
So.. it's coming along nicely.
Side note: The support of people who I haven't had contact with for YEARS has been astounding to me. There are people who I honestly figured had forgotten who the heck I was who are posting me these private messages on facebook and txt msg's.. it's been amazing. I hope they all know how greatly appreciative I am of their support.
Weighed myself a minute ago.. and.. down another 3.4lbs. so.. 12.4lbs lost total so far. :)
I woke up feeling a LOT better.. i haven't had to take any pain medication so far this morning (only been awake 4 hours) I was able to run to the store and get some more meds without any problems. I even parked furthest spot I could get from the CVS and walked both ways.. (only about 100 yds one way)
I also was able to drink about half of a protein shake this morning without any discomfort at all.. yay!!! so able to consume 4oz with no discomfort and im able to bend over and tie shoes without my stictches feeling like they're going to rip out!
So.. it's coming along nicely.
Side note: The support of people who I haven't had contact with for YEARS has been astounding to me. There are people who I honestly figured had forgotten who the heck I was who are posting me these private messages on facebook and txt msg's.. it's been amazing. I hope they all know how greatly appreciative I am of their support.
Weighed myself a minute ago.. and.. down another 3.4lbs. so.. 12.4lbs lost total so far. :)
Friday, July 17, 2009
GAS!
not burping farting gas.. when they do the surgery they fill your stomach cavity with gas to enable them to work around inside easier. When they're done they do their best to remove it, but inevitably some remains.. so.. it drifts up and settles in the shoulders. Talk about annoying pain. It comes and goes, but it is super annoying. I'll be glad when it gets worked out of my system.
i do have the other gas as well.. which is really painful. Im assuming it's because of everything being swollen still.. Gas-X takes alot of the pressure away. but since the surgery I seem to be uncapable of burping which usually would relieve the pressure. I hope this one passes as well! lol
not burping farting gas.. when they do the surgery they fill your stomach cavity with gas to enable them to work around inside easier. When they're done they do their best to remove it, but inevitably some remains.. so.. it drifts up and settles in the shoulders. Talk about annoying pain. It comes and goes, but it is super annoying. I'll be glad when it gets worked out of my system.
i do have the other gas as well.. which is really painful. Im assuming it's because of everything being swollen still.. Gas-X takes alot of the pressure away. but since the surgery I seem to be uncapable of burping which usually would relieve the pressure. I hope this one passes as well! lol
Post-op day 3
Well.. today I woke up on my side.. oops. But My stomach felt surprisingly good getting out of bed, very little pain. I was able to take my morning pills and my protein shake with no problems. (ok.. it's an 8oz shake.. i was only able to drink about 2-3oz before i was full.. but still)
For those of you wondering what I had done. I was outfitted with what is known as a lap-band. It creates a small food pouch above your stomach that food enters first. You feel full much faster, so you eat less. Over time the band can have fluid added to it which adds restriction to the band. closing the passageway between the new pouch and the old stomach. This restriction means food stays in the pouch longer and consequently I am full longer.
video and info here: CLICKY (video is on the page also)
Officially I can move to the "pureed" food phase today. However I am holding off on doing so because my stomach is still quite swollen from surgery. I want to be able to have better feeling in that area before i go to more solid foods. even though pureed foods is only stuff like cream of wheat, mashed potatoes, etc.. i still don't want to push it.
Since surgery day (tuesday) I am down 9 lbs. as well.
For those of you wondering what I had done. I was outfitted with what is known as a lap-band. It creates a small food pouch above your stomach that food enters first. You feel full much faster, so you eat less. Over time the band can have fluid added to it which adds restriction to the band. closing the passageway between the new pouch and the old stomach. This restriction means food stays in the pouch longer and consequently I am full longer.
video and info here: CLICKY (video is on the page also)
Officially I can move to the "pureed" food phase today. However I am holding off on doing so because my stomach is still quite swollen from surgery. I want to be able to have better feeling in that area before i go to more solid foods. even though pureed foods is only stuff like cream of wheat, mashed potatoes, etc.. i still don't want to push it.
Since surgery day (tuesday) I am down 9 lbs. as well.
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